one and lonely

Mi amor es absoluto: blanco y negro, bien o mal, no hay medias tintas. Tus grises los inventaste vos. O estás conmigo o estamos separados. O estoy con vos o estoy sola.

O estoy con vos o estoy muerta. No estoy “más o menos”, no existe ni el más ni el menos. No entiendo “te amo pero no podemos estar juntos”, no entiendo “es complicado”.

El próximo año me lo voy a tomar libre para dedicarme 60% al blog. (El otro 40% de mi tiempo va a ser destinado a la comida).

u have been the one

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes, I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart, you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your hand.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be.
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

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Si me voy antes que vos, si te dejo en estas tierras, no te asustes de la noche que en la noche vivo yo.
Si me voy antes que vos, si es así que está dispuesto, quiero que tus noticias hablen del aire y del sol.
Quiero que siempre recuerdes lo que dijimos un día, que cada vez que te ríes río contigo mi amor.
Y no te olvides de algo que se adivina en la vida, y es que la vida misma es un milagro de amor.
Si me voy antes que vos y visito tu silencio, no es para que estés triste ni para ver tu dolor .
Quiero decirte mi amor en estas torpes palabras que cada vez que llores lo sabrá mi corazón.
Y no nos encontraremos pues siempre estuve a tu lado hacia dónde y hasta cuándo esas son cosas de Dios.
Y no nos encontraremos pues siempre estuve a tu lado siempre aunque me vaya antes es un milagro de amor.

tattooed body

Hey dad,

I’m writing to you not to tell you that I still hate you, just to ask you how you feel? and how we fell apart?, how this fell apart?.

Are you happy out there in this great wide world? Do you think about your sons? Do you miss your little girl? When you lay your head down, how do you sleep at night? Do you even wonder if we’re alright? But we’re alright, we’re alright.

It’s been a long hard road without you by my side, why weren’t you there the nights that we cried? You broke my mother’s heart, you broke your children for life. It’s not ok, but we’re alright. I remember the days you were a hero in my eyes, but those are just a long lost memory of mine. I spent so many years learning how to survive. Now I’m writing just to let you know I’m still alive.

The days I spent ds cold, so hungry, were full of hate, I was so angry. The scars run deep inside, this tattooed body, there’s things I’ll take to my grave. But I’m ok, I’m ok.

Sometimes I forget. Yeah, and this time, I’ll admit that I miss you.
Said I miss you, hey dad.

Florencia.